Need some time just you and me

Wow, one week never update blog again. Sure a lot of things happen one right? Can't really remember a lot. Only that I do feel more and more blissful.

Yesterday me and my dear went rollerblading with Eric in the afternoon. It's not my first time but the first time I tried I was not even able to stand up. Yest end of session, at least I can take baby steps on my rented blades le. After less then 30mins on my skates the sky began play a joke with me and it rained cats and dogs. My dear held on to Eric's umbrella taking baby steps with me. Haha.. funny right? He can like Eric quickly skate to the nearest shelter but he chose to stay in the rain with me. Sweet right? Even when I was learning he refused to go with Eric cos he want to stay there with me. For once I really felt that I am very very fortunate to have someone who really loves me so much. I used to chat with my friends and we discussed that if a boyfriend really used to something and bring a gf along to do it (eg: bf loves jogging and can jog very fast), the gf unable to catch up. The guy would normally feel very frustrated. Or if the girl is to go out with the guy and make a fuss about something he guy will feel very embrassed. But my dear has shown me that how I feel is more impt then what he likes to do and also whether he is embrassed about it at all. I don't know whether you understand what I am talking about above but I had never believe that I would be able to find someone that treats me the same way as Chris used to. Thinking back, I discovered that Chris used to treat me very well as well but I did not know how to appreciate. Now cos appreciation is always on my mind, I began to know that my bf now really loves me so much that himself is no longer that impt anymore. I feel very very touched and blissful. I was thinking yest whether it is he really does love me a lot or it's just his personality. My conclusion, I think cos he really loves me a lot.

It's hard for me to believe that someone would actually put me before himself. Cares about my feelings and stand on my point of view more then his own. But I have seen it with my own eyes and felt it with my own heart. I tell myself, I must treasure my dear more. Treat him better and hope to be the best gf I can be for him.

Yah.. Dear I learn baby steps roller blading le, I can have my own pair of roller blade le hor??

Today I feel very very stressed and bored down. I want some time for myself and some time with my dear alone. Always when we are together, friends would bother us by asking us out or calling us. So far, there is no one day that it's just him and me. I want this day cos I am really suffocating now caring too much about others and others problems but not thinking about my own things. My dear and me are the same type, our friends are always very impt to us de. So we will always do a lot for friends and be there whenever they wish us to be. But maybe, just maybe recently I have been caring about too many people's things at one time that I feel very stressed. I feel like I have no time for myself. Maybe, just maybe one day this week I will suddenly disappear for one day. No one will be able to contact me. Just off my phone and be alone or with my dear only. I told him about this and he says that he would be able to do it. I know it's for my sake. So friends, if one day you are not able to reach any one of us for one whole day, please don freak out. We just need some time for just the both of us...

Cried

I cried a few times last night. Helen always try to act strong and smiley face in front of everyone but deep inside her, if she is sad, she will try to hide one corner and cry. I am being hurt, yes. Maybe I am over reacting the whole situation but it is only one month and he is already taking me forgranted and treating me in a more non-chalant attitude as compared to when we first got together. What will happen in future? Things may get worse.

I am seriously considering to take a break from this relationship. I am weak and not strong. I am really afraid of being hurt. I don't want to put my all in and then in the end get nothing or little back. Should I do it? I don't know. I really love him, I do but....SIGH

Hmm... give and take? Taking me forgranted le

Ok, I know this is the same day post but two diff feelings I have got and I really feel like saying it out. Sun night I felt a change in his attitude towards me. Is it that once a guy knows that you really love him and he has got your heart he will stop treating you nice anymore? I feel sad. Really sad that when I want to commit I get that type of attitude. Did I make the wrong choice? Should I change my choice?

4 surprises

My dear planned 4 surprises for me on Sat 8/11. Actually is 3 lah but taiko the 1st one appear.

1st one I think not very good for me to say here cos it's a bit confi thing.

2nd one he ordered a bouquet of 3 pink roses and asked me to wait at the bus interchange. He appeared with the roses behind his back. Old fashion trick right? But enough to make me smile.

3rd he brought me to a restaurant, Relish, at Cluny. Very nice and relax place. The burger and pasta there nice as well. Plus a strawberry milk shake for myself. Hee.. so indulge.

4th... Singapore Flyer. He booked the tic for 9.30pm de. I like the view from the top. Very nice. Although I am scared of heights he hugged me and made me feel a lot better.

He very sweet lor. All the things above he knows I like so he planned everything. Actually I am a very easily contended girl. After I saw the roses I already cannot stop smiling le. I feel very very blissed cos of his effort. I can't really remember the last time I received one flower not to say a bouquet of it. I really feel very touched by his effort.

Sunday morning breakfast with his "almost" whole family. Very nice gathering. They seem to like me and they really made me feel at ease and part of the family. I am very happy.

I guess after that day I can really be sure I want to put in to this relationship le. He makes me feel very good cos he loves me a lot. I know that and I think I am beginning to appreciate it a lot more and give in too. I see a change in my attitude towards him. I guess I am beginning to let myself go fully le.

New ring on my finger

My dear bought us a pair of couple ring on Sunday. Very nice and I love it a lot. I am actually quite surprise I can accept another ring from someone else so fast cos rings means a lot to me. After posting in facebook, so many people comment that they are happy for me. My dear really treats me very well and I will appreciate and hold on to him cos of that. I guess no one will be able to treat me like what Chrison did in the past but this is good enough. Same as what I say before, no point saying who loves who more cos it does not matter anymore.

I am listening to some songs now and thought about some past. 有一种爱叫做放手 is the song I am referring to. I guess everyone should learn to let go when the time comes. Again, let go of him, let go of yourself. Loving him means seeing him happy. My friends will know who I am referring to cos I believe he will be the guy I love the most in my life but will not be the one to spent the rest of my life with me. May not be the guy most impt to me in future too.

I am looking forward to Sat, my dear has planned some surprises for me. Any friend knows got any romantic place for dinner near ngee ann poly. Cos this is the only hint he gave me and I am trying to guess. Maybe I shouldn't be curiousity kills a cat. Haha...

Dear, still love you and loving more as each day pass. Rermember always to appreciate each other :p