Practical Driving Test

Had my first practical driving test today, failed very badly. 4 "immediate failure", score of 26. Hubby stopped me from learning anymore cos $$$. Have to wait till got a stable income or after my customery wedding in October to learn again.

Have 2 interviews for part-time job tomorrow. Hope things go well...

Tearing me apart

This whole illness thing is tearing me apart. I am so dependent on people. My hubby is thinking of leaving me. I can't work. My whole life is in a mess.

Update

How should I begin? OK, since the last time I ended things with my relationship will talk about that first.

Really big quarrel then parents gotta come up & things like that. Short talk ending with me going to my mum's place to stay. That time, I thought things were doomed. My fault actually, I agiated him. Next day, I went back to my house. Told to pack my things. That was when I updated my last blog. Evening time, my parents came over again. Very big talk, lotta arguments & Alf also hurt his hand. He confied everything to my parents & then things were sorted out. I was glad he finally willing to open himself up to be closer to my parents. I guess from now on, he will know where to go when he needs help.

Now things with him better. I am trying to do my best & he is doting on me once more. Talk more & I just hope & pray that no more next time!!!

Just "quitted" from my job today. Really can't work full time. Had a talk with Alf last night, i will go find a part-time job...Take thing slowly...

This whole marriage thing sucks like hell

Nothing more to say then big quarrel with Alf over small thing. I think it's the end this time................................................

Getting Ever Slightly Better

Better now. Thanks for concern from everyone...

Last Sat, went to see my counsellor, Esther, then she had a agreement with me to be a good wife. Realise after talk with her that no man would want to have a wife like me. Guess I really suck as a wife recently. So will try to distribute household chores with hubby...

I called the temp job last Friday and got a good news that they want me to start work on Monday. It is a temp near my mum's house at Bedok Reservoir till maybe about Sept or so. Decide to give this one last try, if still fails, going to stay at home till maybe after my wedding. Monday did not go. Yesterday, I went for the morning half day. Work is pretty good with people treating me real nice. I was also told that got chance will be converted to perm cos they really need someone but management no budget so for now temp. Hope that really happens. Today still feeling bad in morning so also rest. Pray that tomorrow will be better...

Getting nearer to wedding date. Just realised that I am late in lotta things. For example source for songs, etc. Hubby seems really relectant to plan things. I think he may be thinking donna wedding will go on or not. Will try to be a good wife for him..

Life Sucks....

Life really sucks for me recently.

Yesterday supposed to go work but I sick, gastric, MC 2 days. Then boss asked staff to call & tell me no need to come already. Tried contacting boss but staff always say she not around or not free. Think she avoiding me. Feel so depressed. Don't know what to do from now on. Parents & Alf ask me not to look for job anymore till I am ready. I don't know. Mind is messy...

All I know how is life sucks. I don't know how to proceed from now. To find a job or not. Seriously, I think my job thing is getting onto Alf. Sooner or later I will hear the "D" word. Maybe I should do it first?

Wish I am more independent. Then so many things wouldn't happen. What should I do next???